the perfect Love

yesterday was a hard day. i walked in Gran and Grandaddy's house for the last time. i know they are gone, but there is something about going back to that place where so many memories were first born. i could still smell them. when we drove away, i could almost see them standing outside the door waving goodbye like they always did. the house is now empty, but my heart will never be. i love them both so much. i wish i could tell them one more time here on earth, but i will be seeing them again. this is something i wrote a few days after my grandmother finally went to her home above...

i want to love. really love.

i want the kind of love that only Jesus can give. the kind of love that is unconditional. the world cannot take unconditional love away.. because it's commitment. it's forever.. and we cannot really even understand it until He teaches us about it. He teaches us about this love through His Word and through the cross of Jesus.

i'm tired of seeing the temporary happiness that overwhelms this world. i want to see the real thing.. love overflowing. i do know what real Love is, and He is inside of me. i just want to come to a better understanding of Him.

as i wear this ring that symbolizes the love that my grandparents shared throughout their years on earth together, i want it to remind me how important it is to be committed. committed to family.. to friends.. but most of all.. to my Maker. i believe He wants us to find love on earth as He loves His bride, and i pray that i won't settle for anything that doesn't come from Him. i can't...

my grandparents were the two most committed people i've ever seen on this earth. they were committed to the Lord.. to their church.. to their family and friends.. and to each other. they loved each other unconditionally. i am so blessed to have had them in my life for so long to teach me a little more about love. remembering them makes me long to love like they did.

although my grandmother was buried thursday, she really died when my grandfather did in april. she didn't want to live anymore. she didn't have the will to fight death. she kept saying.. "it's time for me to go home. i want to see him." she couldn't bear to live this life without the one who had made a covenant with her. they shared a love that doesn't come from this world. they experiences real love.

i want to be taught more about this love, so that i can give it away. i want a love that is steadfast and secure. a love that brings no guilt or shame. until i find love on earth.. and even then.. i'm setting my eyes on Jesus.. the perfect love.

perfect love casts out all fear.

i really need this love.