if You say go, we will go
if You say wait, we will wait
if You say step out on the water
and they say it can't be done
we'll fix our eyes on You and we will come...
this empty page is intimidating me now.
a few years ago when i had a thousand other places to be besides on my bed writing, ideas would come one right after another. now that i’m here with no other obligations, i sit and wait.
and wait.
......and...wait...
the only reason i’m here now is because i’m home and the power is off. my options are thin. i could go read a book... which is what i would normally do in this scenario. but today, i just keep staring at this page like i’m secretly hoping the words appear and the answers become clear.
i’m currently listening to Coeur De Pirate, and although i understand none of the words, the music... along with her voice... is so beautiful. i almost think the words would ruin it for me.
words mean everything to me. don’t get me wrong.
let me rephrase that.
truthful words mean everything to me.
there are so many words that float around with no meanings and sting and corrupt and make their ways down so deep into our hearts that it makes it hard to know which ones to believe.
so... more often than not, i enjoy moments with no words at all.
words can make the truth blurry to us.
too may words, too little action. i’ll say it again and again and again...
too many words. too little action.
the power came back on about thirty minutes ago, and i’m still here. this is progress. it used to be somewhat easy for me and now it’s not.
who am i kidding? it was never easy.
it will be easy one day, but for now, i’ll press on.
...Your ways are higher than our ways
and the plans that You have made are good and true
if You call us to the fire, You will not withdraw Your hand
We'll gaze into the flames and look for You
-Rita Springer
